Unit X. Integration and the Search
4. Role of ego
5. The search for God
Materials needed: Journal, drawing materials, puja cup
The circle of love*
Ashtanga Yoga primer*
Paradoxes of love*
“Labyrinth” Parabola or The mystic spiral
Exercises and practices:
The invisible center
The body of God
Obedience and freedom
* You may already have these books
In the fifth chakra we have two circles. The larger one is bluish-gray
and the smaller one is white. Woodroffe (1973) says, “In the pericarp
[shell or seed capsule] of this Lotus is the Nabho-mandala (ethereal
region): inside the latter is the triangle (Trikona); inside the triangle
is the Candra-mandala [lunar region]; and inside it is the Nabho-bija.
. . Think of the full moon in the triangle within the pericarp; there think
of the snowy Akasa seated on an elephant, and whose raiment is white.
. . ‘whose raiment is white’ qualifies Akasa” (p. 389).
I offer this quotation because Woodroffe’s descriptions often use different
words to designate the same thing. Candra means moon, Mandala means
a circle, Akasa means ether which is the element of the fifth chakra.
Ether is also called Nabho and Vyoma. Ambara refers to
the bija or essence of ether [“On an elephant white as snow is seated the
Bija of Ambara, who is white in colour” (p. 384]. The Bija of Ambara
is the Sanskrit letter on the back of the elephant. The ethereal circle
is also called Vyoma-mandala or Nabho-mandala. White is the color of
space, according to Woodroffe (p. 391). However, the Nabho-mandala is
bluish-grey, not white. Instead the bija, or essence, is white.
So is the Candra-mandala and, in this case, white means purity. Purity
refers to the condition of the aspirant who must cleanse all sense perceptions
as well as the mind [“whose mind (Buddhi) is illumined” (p. 384)]
and become free of the impurities of worldly pursuits. Visuddha, the
name of the chakra, also means pure, ethereal, great and excellent.
Let us begin with the Nabho-mandala, the larger, bluish-grey circle.
Circles always denote wholeness, and wholeness implies that some kind of integration
has occurred. In this case, we are talking about reconciliation of
the ego, personality, soul, Spirit and Higher Self. The smokey color
of the Nabho-mandala suggests that there is still some corruption by the ego
and personality, and that there is still purification work to be done (cf.
Unit VI. Persisting Issues). However, the
practices of this guidebook should have made inroads into that problem and
led to clarification of the relationships between all the parts of the person
with which we have been concerned. The ego and personality are still
needed to interface with the outside world, so are still in the picture.
The inner work or purification of the soul is reflected in the second circle,
The Candra-mandala is the stainless, full moon, a symbol of purity.
It is considered to be the Gateway to Liberation because the aspirant has
nearly finished removing the veils of ignorance and cleansing the mind of
its impurities. As that occurs, the usual tendencies to classify everything
into opposites disappear and we become aware of the seamlessness of reality.
We will see the reconciliation of polarities occurring in the sixth chakra.
It begins in this chakra.
Freedom from polarities is represented by Sada-Siva who is pictured as androgynous,
half male and half female. This figure has five heads and ten arms and
is seated on a white bull. According to Johari (1987) the five heads
represent the five senses and the five elements, all in union and all purified.
The aspirant is now centered and understands “the human plane in all
totality” (p. 74). According to Woodroffe (1973, p. 387), Sada-Siva’s
tools and their reminders are: 1) Noose - warns of being caught in unawarenesses,
2) goad - effort is still needed, 3) cobra - wisdom, 4) trident - physical,
subtle and causal bodies integrated, 5) fire - purifier, 6) bell - reminder
to listen and hear, 7) vajra - power of wisdom, 8) sword - discrimination
still needed, 9) battle-ax - to cut away veils of maya, 10) Abhaya-mudra-
gesture of fearlessness. To see a picture of Sada-Siva view the colored
plates in Chakras: Energy centers of transformation (Johari, 1987). Note: Even Woodroffe vacillates between the number of Sada-Siva’s arms, either
four or ten (cf also Johari, 1987, p. 73).
Concentration on this chakra is said to produce uninterrupted peace of mind
and ability to see into the three periods of time: past, present and future.
This fits with what we know about the non-linearity of time which can be perceived
by the intuitive mind when released from past conditioning. The practitioner
also becomes free of disease, healthy and long-lived. And, because
s/he is free of maya, there is no longer any sorrow. Further the person
becomes like the Hamsa for s/he can destroy dangers and open the Gate of
A new level of wisdom is achieved through knowledge of the Atma or
Higher Self. This means a realization of the all-pervadingness of the Universal
Reality has occurred. Such an understanding comes gradually and as
a result of the perfection attained through Yoga and its practices.
This means not only Hatha Yoga but all the Yogas of purification [cf. Patanjali’s
Sutras for more details (Mishra, 1987; Taimni, 1975)].
The Jnani (or knowing) person can be recognized by the qualities
of his/her demeanor: peaceful, merciful, constant, gentle, steady, modest,
courageous, forgiving, self-controlled, pure and humble (Woodroffe, 1973,
p. 391). In addition, s/he is free from greed, malice, pride and the
other ego “sins” discussed earlier. This person may be perceived by
others as a sage or wise person. Notice the lack of ego referencing
in the qualities mentioned above. All of these characteristics describe
the Authentic Self or Ambara.
Ambara is the essence of ether. If we translate that into simpler
English and decode the symbols, it means the personal essence, soul or spiritual
nature of each person. Sometimes this is called Atman or Vak in
Sanskrit. Atman means the Divine Self or inner guru. Vak
is the power of speech or “great Lord of Speech. . the undifferentiated illuminating
Self” (Woodroffe, 1973, p. 172). Remember that speech, in Yoga,
is analogous to Logos or the ability to create. Ether refers to space
or spaciousness, limitlessness beingness. It has no boundaries, no physical
properties, no qualifications. So this is who you are. It is
your true identity, your divinity. Jung calls it the Self. Because
the Ambara is found in the candra-mandala, it is identified with perfection.
Among other things this means the person has achieved a balance of body,
mind and speech. Therefore, as it becomes purified, the role of ego
slowly changes in relationship to the soul’s journey and the Creator’s desire.
1. Collect your drawing materials before beginning the meditation
so you are not distracted later. Sit for meditation and allow yourself
to slip into that spacious meadow of beingness that has no words nor concepts.
If you are able to contact your inner guidance, do so and, after a devotional
greeting, ask for an image of your soul as it is in progress.
If you are unable to contact the inner guide, lie down on the floor and do
the Twilight Imaging. When you meet your
Higher Self, ask for the image. When you return to normal space, quickly
sketch the image you have seen, so you do not forget it.
2. Make a mandala of the image of your soul that you received.
Take good care and select your colors to represent the feeling tones of the
image. If it feels right to you, you might try drawing the image on
black paper with pastel crayons. This would give a feeling of the numinousness
of the soul coming out of the void. If you need instructions for how
to make a mandala, you might want to consult Mandala: Journey to the center
by Bailey Cunningham (2002).
Role of Ego
There is something for ego to do in this new regime. It is always
necessary to have some aspect of oneself that can interface with the outside
world. This may be more obvious to introverts than to extroverts
who tend to focus outwardly anyway. As long as we are in bodies, we
have to interact with others and with our surroundings. We have to
take responsibility for getting our basic needs met, so that we do not draw
too heavily on the energies of others and upset their balances with unnecessary
dependencies. And we have to maintain our boundaries when others try
to invade our inner privacy or human dignity. This aspect of ego is
different from the parts that are engaged in self-gratification and power
mongering. Discernment is necessary when faced with temptations to
give ego unlimited powers, so it is important to make these distinctions.
Another vital function for ego is to generate and support self-love based
on an intrinsic sense of worthiness. Most of us have been wounded by
the socialization practices to which we were subjected as children.
And, as a consequence, we may have developed self-images that tell us we are
not good or that we are lacking in certain, essential qualities that would
endear us to others. Because these images were established so early
and have been defended by the ego for so many years, they are deeply entrenched.
And even though we may be fully aware on a cognitive level that they are
wrong it can take a great deal of effort to pull out all the roots.
There are almost reflexive reactions to certain trigger stimuli that happen
before we have time to think. Especially between parents and children
do these patterns tend to persist. You may find yourself acting out
an old argument with your mother or father that simply is neither germane
nor rational in the present context. Nevertheless, you do it perhaps
every time you meet or at the slightest provocation.
It helps to become aware of the distinction between our true identity and
divinity and our old self-images. We are not egos, we are gods.
Jesus said, “Ye are Gods” (St. John 10:34) so did the God of Genesis
(Genesis 3:5). The Upanishads say “Tat Twam Asi” (That Thou Art).
The Sufi Invocation says, “The only Being.” The more we connect ourselves
with the only Being, the easier it will become to behave like It. This
is the reason for spiritual practices.
Exercise: The Invisible Center
Read chapter 7 in The circle of love. Then sit quietly and
reflect on what it means to stay in the world with an ego and simultaneously
what it means to “know that we are not.” Write a short essay in your
journal on how you experience these two dimensions of your existence.
Another role for ego is to maintain balance between all powers, senses and
personality aspects. Included in this would be the relationships between
the spiritual parts or functions of yourself as well as between the spritual
parts of yourself and the outside world. How do you manifest your soul
in the world? for example. How do you cope with your needs for solitude
so you can meditate and reflect on your journey? How do you share your
time and energies between family, work, recreation and spiritual practice?
All such issues are ego tasks and may be eased by figuring out how your daily
responsibilities offer opportunities to your soul to both learn new lessons
and to create new beauties. It helps to ask the Beloved what It wants
you to do and thereby gain Its support.
Exercise: Body of God
Think about and list the ways in which you can be the eyes, ears, hands,
feet, and mouth of God in your daily life. Then create a ritual in which
you can dedicate these parts of your body to service of the Divine One.
You might bless them with Light or water (maybe in the shower?), for instance,
or purify them with smoke from a fire. Most ashrams keep an altar in
the kitchen, and the beginning of each day starts with a short prayer of
dedication: All that I do is for You. Bless my eyes, hands and
mouth to Your service today. Bring Light into everything I do today.
You may word this any way that fits your soul’s purpose.
The ego can maintain focus on continuing the work towards developing finer
feelings, the refinement of the senses we have been developing. Spending
a little time reflecting on your ideals from time to time and certainly at
the New Year will help keep this work in the forefront of your attention.
Use your journal to keep track of what you are doing and to chart your progress.
Along with this, continue your purification practices. Since the cosmic
fire is generated in this chakra, you might want to work out a puja (fire
ceremony) for yourself.
A Puja or an Arati is a devotional service offered to the
Beloved. A typical Arati can be found in your copy of Ashtanga Yoga
Primer (Dass, 1981). You can use any format you have available
as long as it is devotional and purificatory. Include an invocation,
cleansing ritual, chanting, prayers or meditation, scriptures, etc. closing
with an expression of gratitude. If you have access to a Yoga Center,
you can attend a satsang there in which you will experience the same things.
Other traditions offer analogous ceremonies, but keep in mind that your goal
here is purification, dedication and support for your continuing work on yourself,
so choose services that meet those qualifications. In Christian Churches,
for example, a confession qualifies as purification if it is deeply intended.
Finally, the ego must remember to subject itself to the Divine One, so it
would help to figure out some daily reminders. “I have an ego but I
am not my ego, I am Divine Light” would do nicely for an affirmation if you
like to use affirmations. You could find a piece of jewelry that would
represent the Beloved to you and wear it. Then whenever you happen to
look at it, send your love to the Beloved or make a subtle touch to your heart
which is the domain of both of You. Sufis greet each other by placing
a hand over their hearts. “The Divine in me salutes the Divine in you.”
Placing the palms of your hands together at heart level as a greeting is
“Namaste” in Yogic communities and means the same thing. Crossing yourself,
as Christians do, is a good idea. Practicing a mantra until it becomes
self-generating is another good idea as it would name the One. Put
up small altars around your dwelling and make offerings on them. Include
an altar in the garden if you have one. Fountains are good as water
is symbolic of the soul and of the spirit. Running water is music to
the soul. Put pictures, icons and other items that are meaningful to
you around the house as reminders.
Exercise: Obedience and Freedom
Read pages 132-141 in The paradoxes of love. What does Vaughan-Lee suggest we do to actualize
our role as a servant of God? How does this relate to wholeness?
The Search for God
You might say, well I have found Him or Her or It. So why is this
topic coming up now? Well, the answer is because the journey has no
end which is why it is often represented by a spiral. It goes on as
long as we are embodied. Mentally understanding that I am God is not
the same thing as Being God or as feeling I am God. We are always Being
God even in the depths of ignorance and wrongdoing because there is nothing
outside of God. It is the conscious experience of feeling God that
we seek, that unification of soul with its Home. Once that is
achieved, we still have to figure out how to function as God and for God
in everyday life in the world. So we are all seekers and always seekers.
This quest is represented in mythology by spirals, labyrinths and the Grail
The heart is a sanctuary at the Center of
which there is a little space, wherein the Great Spirit (Wakantanka) dwells,
and this is the Eye. This is the Eye of Wakantanka by which He sees
all things, and through which we see Him. – Black Elk
Labyrinths are a circular path to the center. They are found in all
cultures and all religious traditions in some form or other. Most
recently, they have been popularized by the Episcopal Church. Trainings
are given to teach people how to lead workshops on labyrinth. Typically,
members of a group walk the labyrinth in silence to the center where they
stand quietly meditating on what it means to them to be at the center of themselves
or of life. Then they walk the same path out again. Each time
I do it, I gain a new insight. The first time it was, “The way in is
the way out.” To me, this meant that the solution to my dilemma was
to go within.
Labyrinths vary in their complexity. The most beautiful is probably
the one built into the floor of the cathedral at Chartres. The inner
ear is, appropriately for this unit, a labyrinth. Theseus is well-known
for his trip to the center of the labyrinth at Knossos from which he found
his way out by means of a thread given him by Ariadne. The path up to
the Tor at Glastonbury is a labyrinth.
Figure 6 is a labyrinthine pattern found on the wall at Newgrange in Ireland
which was built 5000 years ago. You can find labyrinths everywhere as
they are not hard to make and can be used over and over again. Check
it out with your favorite search engine. Celtic knots are forms of labyrinth.
Other knots composed of interlocking rings are often seen as threshold guardians.
This would include the granthis in the chakra system.
The journey to the center and back is reminiscent of the journey to the
center of the earth, the initiatory path of death and rebirth we have already
met. In every case, the seeker is looking for his or her true identity
as divinity and the spiritual Home.
1. Read the “Labyrinth” edition of Parabola or The mystic
spiral by Jill Purce and compare the many forms it can take. How
does the spiral resonate with your vision of the spiritual journey?
What do spirals and labyrinths have in common and how are they different?
What aspects of the journey do these similarities and differences represent?
2. Draw a map of your soul’s journey showing the center and how you
got there or would get there. Choose those symbols to adorn it that
are most meaningful to you. If music is your thing, compose a piece
of music that indicates the same journey. You could also dance it or
The Grail is a fascinating symbol. It was believed to be the cup that
Jesus offered at the last supper. Another interpretation of it is that
it was the cup in which the blood from the wound in Christ’s side was caught
at the crucifixion. Many people believe that the Grail was brought to
Glastonbury, England by Joseph of Arimathaea who took Jesus’ body down from
the cross. The court of King Arthur and the knights of the round table
revered the Grail and many of the knights went in search of it mostly without
success. Galahad was the only one who found it, and he was a virgin
knight (i.e., pure and undefiled). There are numerous other stories
that have the Grail as the central motif, and all are myths of the spiritual
Primarily, a cup is a container. It holds things. In Christian
communion, it symbolically holds Christ’s blood which represents the sacrifice
of Jesus’ life (or ego or soul) for us. Blood is essential for life.
The Grail legends in England equated the Grail with Mary, mother of Jesus.
It was the womb from which our salvation sprang. The Glastonbury Abbey
was built to honor Mary. (It was later destroyed by Henry VIII.)
A cup of hemlock escorted Socrates to the other world. The logo for
SpiritSong is a cup overflowing with water upon which a fire burns.
Cups and/or grails appear in every religious tradition and usually contain
something infinitely precious to the human soul even in the case of Socrates.
Historically, the Grail has been a symbol of spiritual wholeness offering
a potion that leads to unity consciousness. Hence the search for the
Grail is also a representation of the search for wholeness and integration.
We celebrate this potential in a variety of communion rituals.
Exercise and practice: The Grail
1. Read The Grail by John Matthews. Then select the form
and interpretation that most attracts you and make, select or buy a cup or
chalice that will represent it to you.
2. Add a communion action to your puja or arati ritual using
your own grail. To make this deeply meaningful, take the time to sacralize
and internalize what you are doing. Make what the cup contains be as
important as the cup itself. Together the cup and its contents should
symbolize your journey and the goal. Meditation and/or prayer creates
an appropriate setting for communion.
We have seen how the journey to wholeness involves a lifetime of seeking.
This does not mean that there are no achievements only that embodiment places
some limitations on how ethereal we can get. There are many who would
insist that the body is an essential part of the wholeness under discussion
and has its own essential role to play in enlightnment. That it is a
critical part of the soul’s learning is certainly unquestionable since we
incarnate into a physical vehicle in order to address our soul’s lessons.
The journey to wholeness can be seen as a continuation of the dark night
journey and other forms of initiation that involve death, descent and rebirth
into Light. All are pilgrimages to the center of Being where we may
expect to meet the Beloved. Now our pilgrim stands at the threshold
or gate of liberation deliberating the next move.
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We have examined the search for wholeness and
the spiritual journey in a number of its forms. Unit XI. Healing will offer some healing practices
and principles and conclude this guidebook.
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